Just what the header says! This page is where I'll write anything that comes to my mind, I could talk about my day or stuff that made me happy or made me upset, literally just anything! I will date these entries but once i figure out how to I can add links to specific entries on the page, because the way this will be set up is latest entries will be closest to the top, frankly I don't know if I'll just number them or if I'll put a title or something if I'm wanting to...Just read around, I don't care at all if this is all embarassing 'cuz hey. Hormones will eff you uppppppp but we trek on! (P.S. Some entries could have images as well :-P )
11-12-2024
lmao. I might have forgotten to update this X.X I wanted to but at the same time I felt like absolute crap so I didn't feel like typing out a bunch of html shtuff. Anywayssss I'm listening to Rings of Saturn right not I like the guitars a lot, yesterday I tried to take a nap but it sucked and was only an hour long but at least I listened to a lot of Nirvana. IDK today feels a little better than yesterday but I still feel really lonely which makes me sound like a loser but whatever, I really wanna talk about the things I like but I keep getting interrupted by my parents and I don't even feel like trying with my friends right now so I guess I'm doing this to myself by not saying anything. Onto more non heinous news I'm gonna be working on my pages today!! I'll add what I like to my interests page and then maybe I'll make a while section about Brutal Legend because it is my fave game ever and it makes me happy, IDK I don't think I'll do anything that cool today because I'm pretty sure my dad miiight be hungover so we won't go to the skatepark :/ but that's honestly fine with me I got too mad at myself because I'm a total wuss and can't just DROP IN but wtv. Let's see hmm did you know I play bass? No you didn'tttt because I haven't added anythig to my music page in a while, which I wanna work on more I just don't know how it'll get set up, I like how this page is, I could do something similar, I like the black background and colorful text it feels ilke I'm one of those cool people who made fansites hehe. I'll have to get a new sketchbook today OMG I drew Simon Henriksson fron Cry of Fear today because I was playing and FINALLY got to the first boss (and then died :P). Later losers I gotta update my website not just my online gaywad journal - 3:28pm
11-06-2024
Welp. Today really was something. I had this whole plan yesterday so my first entry would be something great and positive but today was just a bunch of bullcrap. Election day happened. Woke up and cried inthe shower, I'm completely scared and frankly hopeless right now I don't know what I can do except for just be quiet and try not to be the real me to anyone ya know. Horrible start to my day and I'll prolly be going to bed in like 3 hours or so and I still feel like utter trash. This really sucks, everything about America sucks donkey balls and I am just so so SO tired of everything in life right now. I miss my friends, I miss having fun, I've been stuck in one of those ruts lately where happiness doesn't last more than a few hours but sshh it's fine, it has to be fine, wanna know why? Because it all doesn't matter and I can't do anything, so I shouldn't be all bleh about it. I dunno though, today just made me feel bad, yesterday was bad too but who knows. Trying to think of something that isn't so emo to put here. Updating the website tomorrow most defiitely. I just wish I had more control over my life ya know. I drew some which is good but these past few days everything is just overwhelming and I's like to be in my own house w/ my own roooommm to be alone. I want all my stuff back man EFF this. Stay tuned for tomorrow..will things get better?...prob not but that's just my hormones talking I guess. Signing off - 6:20pm